I have never heard a song that has so clearly defined my character, my relationship with God, and the changes I need to make to delve into an even deeper relationship with Him.
I had heard the song a couple of times before, but a few days ago, the opening lyrics just hit me…
I believe that You are God alone
But sometimes I still try to take control
Cause I get scared when I can’t see the end
And all You want from me is to let go
This is so, so true for me. I get anxiety because things take a turn for the worse, or look like they might, and I freak out about what’s going to happen.
Then the chorus comes in…
You’re parting waters
Making a way for me
You’re moving mountains that I don’t even see
You’ve answered my prayer before I even speak
All You need for me to be is still
This is clearly inspired by Psalms 46:10, which states, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth! (NKJV)”
I have been on the hunt for books about finding peace with God and stumbled on a gold mine: three books by Dr. Charles Stanley, senior pastor of First Baptist Church in Atlanta. The titles are as follows:
- Finding Peace: God’s Promise of a Life Free from Regret, Anxiety, and Fear
- How to Let God Solve Your Problems: 12 Keys for Finding Clear Guidance in Life’s Trials
- God Has a Plan for Your Life: The Discovery that Makes All the Difference
I’ve just started reading the first one recently, but it has already had an impact. The book opens with Dr. Stanley telling a story of a trip he took, and despite all his planning, he found himself stranded with seemingly no way out on more than one occasion. Each time, he took a moment to pray, emphasizing, “God, You are in control.” That simple phrase has really stuck with me.
My husband and I have been facing a time of financial hardship—the kind where it’s questionable whether we’re going to be able to pay rent at the end of the month or not, let alone whether we’ll be able to put food on the table. We had a couple of scary situations over the past week where we really needed to put gas in the car and I needed to buy textbooks for school, and it looked like those transactions were going to cause my account to go into overdraft.
Remembering Dr. Stanley’s prayers, I took a moment to pray while in the midst of turmoil over both transactions, each time acknowledging out loud that God was in control and that He was aware of our situation. Saying the words was freeing for me, because I was admitting to myself and to God that I had absolutely no control over what was going to happen, that worrying wasn’t going to do me any good, and that we needed His help. Praying this way didn’t completely remove my fears, but I definitely felt a reduction in my anxiety and found it easier to sleep those nights. I can’t wait to see what other bits of inspiration I find in these books.